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01/15/03 A brief taunt, from the wild nature held inside, a stolen moment, a glance... Overcome by history's tide. Chilled air and liquored tongue... Forewarned in thought, the night's outcome. Still, laughter cometh and energy swayed... With bars withdrawn, the choice was made. We doused ourselves in naughty pleasures, finding no retreat. Accepting all offered gestures, gave way to will's defeat. Fire swept through our embrace... energy swam between our skin. Eyes shut to this known disgrace, caring nothing of our sin. A Flame was lit, yet all too brief, as all fine moments do quickly pass... Now ashes taint this memory, guilt stricken with no impasse.

Pessimist 01/17/03 You called me a pessimist. What?! I don't think so more so than you, probably but you can't use that to label me I've run through this life so far without fearing the worst still a few memories have left my mind cursed cursed to always question the emotions I feel left with this empty presence the drug couldn't kill Your eyes haven't seen the depth of my world your ears couldn't handle the stories I've heard I've watched death consume the brightest of days seen many flowers wither and haze like a movie, watched two lovers embrace one that I loved, the other disgraced haunting dark spirits screamed at my heart holding my ears, broken apart tortured soul wandering dark city streets alone and unsure, still came to defeat witnessed a young girl beaten with tears no image was worse in her few living years still something inside pushed me to grow keeping me strong, westward plans sow through all of the pain and torment, kept sight laughed at it all, and made my heart light So bring on your keen observation more optimistic of this one situation but don't judge the way I question this fight all these years of self knowledge doesn't mean you'll be right Pessimist? No, a realist perhaps still I'll hold tight your reasons till our time has past

Unspoken Promises 01/20/03 Darkness touches the sky, Another day gone by. Bottled up inside, all the feelings you choose to hide. Shadowed memories of broken dreams... Shattered love stories ripped at the seams. Unspoken promises led you astray, spoken dreams taken away. Set your heart free and allow it to hurt... If shut off from feeling, than what is life worth? The risk may be great, the sacrifice real, still the unspoken promises carry the seal. And the spoken dreams may be foolish, and still... There's nothing in life greater than the love you can feel.

Up On A Hill 01/24/03 Up on a hill...our last moments were shared, Your arms warmed tightly around me So young, pretending our time was forever here Knowing not, the fate before thee A song left your lips, tickling my lobe in a sullen whisper; The faint melody caressed my beating heart. We stared endlessly upon the terrain stretched out so tender Just as the pink colored sunset was to start No greater love was known to thee, Nor passion felt before that night That night we shared together, Just before that fateful flight. Up on a hill...I sit alone, ten years to the date Vacant, are your arms to warm me from the breeze Wiser now; knowing that all must meet their ending fate Recalling that last night, my memory did freeze Haunting memory wandering through my mind Since the day you lifted from the earth A broken heart, thought a mend would never find Till time delivered your daughters birth Up on a Hill...you watch from above... As I reminisce the last moments of our shared love.

Growing Up 02/01/03 I once was a girl of ten... Thought I knew it all back then. But my years were few, and there was little I knew of this world and all within. Before long I turned sixteen... Always immersed in risky extremes. Still too young to know the dark trails that we sow, When we chase the wrong set of dreams. Within a year, bore a child... Then, forced to suppress the wild. New life in my hands, with constant needs and demands. But through it all, often smiled. By twenty-two a few friends died... I still sadly wonder why. Taken by his own hand, one lonely, young man. Now six feet below he lies. Then twenty-four came and went... This year was insanely spent! Chased a few dreams, crashed a few scenes, nothing has been the same since. At twenty-six years of age... Succumbed to depressions rage. Searched for my soul, regained self-control, then escaped from misery's cage. Now twenty-nine years behind... One dream still toys with my mind. The dream that one-day I'll hear a man say, 'Marry me, love, always be mine'. But who knows of what the future holds, or what stories are left to be told. Two things are true... Great friends are few, and those that survive grow old.

Melt Into You 02/05/03 Waking from the nightmare of my life... you're standing there... no words are spoken translucent colors fill the air blurred are the details of your face, though your image seems so clear All my fears melt away, as I melt into you each impression you make my dreams come into view and with every breath I take I'm falling into you Now focused on your face, I note the beauty it holds although dark embers fill this place, a ray of light shines from your soul You take the darkness away and make my spirt glow... moving forward from this day, loving you is all I'll know

Lost In Love 02/10/04 Laying in darkness, your skin next to mine a kiss sweet and tender... our souls intertwine A whisper of love, soft trace of the hand dream with a smile, this moment so grand Taken away, all the fears I hide open to you, my love I confide When I look in your eyes, violet shadows I see it's in you I find the heart inside me Your body so soft, your touch so sincere an infusion so deep, a connection so clear Your breath on my face, your lips gentle graze you've captured my heart... Enraptured, I gaze Our souls meet inside with our body's glide deepened love with each moment... all worries subside

Blush Colored Memories 02/17/03 Day after day I pretend as if life has begun... and that which I have always longed for has found me and is present. But he is not here... He sits nearby yet, his soul wanders the universe searching for what is to be seen. I see him here...I feel his skin... my mind pretends this is real. Still, I know the Summer sun will steal him away, and a cold darkness will fill this space. The laughter we share will be a faint echo in my ear. I will swallow my heart, burying it deep beneath the hardened skin that has grown. Then I will drown in blush colored memories...   This world I know will die. Still, through it all... I will live.

Chilling Downcast 02/24/03 Separation sets in clouding the sun Harsh cold air sweeps across my skin Numbness takes over... The curtain has fallen on this day I thought would never end Yet I look up and see no stars... Only empty darkness blankets my heart This god-like way we greet each day fools us into immortality Falsely we believe our time won't cease... But we are fragile... And the smallest drop of rain, will shatter us... and we will fall.

Winter's Birth 03/02/03 Today I stepped out into the world... a quick chilling breeze around me then swirled. The cold cement reached up through my shoes, Winter took stage for a season's debut. Clinching my wrap, I lost all control. Shivering deep, obvious to the cold. The day's brittle air tainted my mood, my previous joy, these senses delude. Briefly the sun crept out through the clouds,> to peek at the world before they enshroud. This moment allowed for warmth's embrace, then the moment was gone, and chill replaced. Pressing my face to the rushing winds, I felt myself numb to the pain they send. Hands turned to fists, preparing to fight. A long road ahead, new troubles in sight. A mist fills the air...then sudden pour. Boldly, I welcome the clouds raging war. Lose not thy footing, nor stray from path. Courageous, I take on this season's wrath. Cursed this day dark weather now owns. Summer has gone, by Winter dethroned... And though this season has won the first round, It reigns ever briefly, for soon Spring will be crowned.